Virtuwell Savior

Today has been day three of my stuffy headed sickness. But I still managed to stumble out of bed and this morning, though a bit unbalanced and dizzy, I made it to work thinking well it will go away soon. About 4 hours into the day I was just so exhausted and worn out that I just could not stay any longer. So after long hours of standing I made it back home feeling shittier then ever. I laid in the bed trying to tame my aching body and stuffed up sinuses when I finally gave in and started my search for a minute clinic. But aside from the fact that I did not have much money to spare, it had already been an hour past 6 nothing was opened to my disposal. So I finally took the time to look up www.virtuwell.com, a site I have been hearing about on the radio since flu season started this past year.

After a long process of survey questions I finally got to the end. 30 minutes later a nurse called me up and verified the several major conditions I had and the conclusion.... a viral sinus infections. I think the best part about this website is the full report on what you have and different ways to treat it. Mine were all over the counter medicines that I could get right away. But if I don't improve in 3 days even after following their carefully gathered treatment plan I can request for a call back and they'll then reevaluate my conditions free of charge. If they feel like the sinus infection turned bacterial they will then prescribe me some antibiotics. How convenient; sometimes you just need a little help to get back on your feet and this cost me half as much and I did it right from home. Pretty exciting new discovery. Now just need to rest up and be all fixed for the rest of this week. It's going to be a busy one for sure.

What a day.....

Today has been one hell of an adventure. I called in to work for the first time this year because of a cold... then I come to find out that my car has been towed due to street sweeping. But that was mostly my fault. I wasn't feeling so great last night and didn't move my car. Well hopefully tonight will be better then my whole day has been. grrrr

Making a nightmare last a life time

Have you ever took a whole day off to analyze your self? I recently started to micro analyze my self to see what I could improve; but the more I looked at my self the more I realized that a lot of the things I do habitually is very cowardly and self conscious. I always knew in the back of my mind that I was self conscious but never knew to what degree. Everyday it's a reoccurring fight against my self to make my self loath my self a little less and to try to focus on real life problems. But sometimes I guess this problem defeats over all other problems. Then I come to the conclusion that I might need help... Yet even with me say this every time, reminding my self I need to find help has not actually gotten me any closer to finding help.... I know I just need to pick up the phone and call for help. It's as easy as that... but what is stopping me... why am I so scared? Is it what I'll find when I get there... or is it because I'm so used to being this way that I don't want to change? Or is it because I'm scared to expect the fact certain this are not under my control? I don't know it might be all of the above.... it's just too..... overwhelming to me right now. But soon maybe I'll put it to that mind to rest. Or at least learn to cope with it in a healthy way. Soon nightmare you will be a distance memory.

Gently Passing

A sudden silence grows near
As the moment of ending comes to clear
I feel a little light headed
And my body feels flighted
Soaring above all things
Brushing away all hings

We are free at last
We are free at last
From the chains that held me captive
Grow me a pair of wings at last