WTF

Right now I'm walking down a winding path with a blindfold on. I can't really take it off but I also am too scared to move forward. I know the familiar sounds but there are different sounds and things that pass me by that I am getting scared to reach out for. And right now I'm really struggling with the fact that this thing might really had been worth it....  But I can't wait any longer.... because a little while longer and for me the world will be crashing down again on my head.... what the fuck did I do... why do I deserve to hurt like this over and over again.... oh wait that's just how it works.... and that's life. WTF..